Olive is 3 Months

Sweet girl! Ollie is working on playing on her tummy. She loves sitting up and talking to us. She will start at daycare with Adeline mid March. Things are going to get busy around here!

Crossfit After Baby

Well, I did go back to Crossfit after baby. I went back at 6 weeks. And, it's been 6 weeks since I started back. And let me admit right now, it is not easy! As a matter fact, it's harder than I ever imagined it would be. I continued crossfitting while I was pregnant, after all!! Shouldn't this be a breeze? That was my intention. Going back post baby has been very humbling. I will go as far as to say that it hurt my pride. Beginners are doing way better than I am! I refuse to say to people, or myself, that "I just had a baby". I'm not going to lie, though, I love when other people say it for me. That way I feel like I have an excuse for this body that does not look or work the way I want it to!
Nothing feels right in the gym.  Things I was really good at before now feel foreign.  My form is off, the weights are heavy, and my endurance is shot. I don't know at what point it will feel better, but it will feel better. I'm sure of that. So what's with the bitch-fest? Surely you're asking yourself that.  Why am I still going to crossfit if it's so horrible? There are a couple of reasons I'm still going.  Number one, I remember how much I loved it before.  Two, I am an example to my family.  Three, my wonderful, encouraging husband is keeping me going. He's being so supportive and offering to keep the baby. Or he comes with me and tells me how awesome I'm doing.  And last, I couldn't be in a better crossfit gym.  It's full of supportive friends, other mommies who are rocking it, and great coaches.  I've talked about Crossfit Bay Area many times on this blog, but I appreciate our crossfit community now more than ever.  They have always been accepting of families with children, and now their support of all the new crossfit babies has been overwhelming.  How can a new mommy not appreciate members who will hold babies, coaches who will find pacis, wear babies, and rock carseats during WODs! 
This is truly a gym family in every sense. To everyone who has been helpful along the way, this mommy is so appreciative!


Coach Troy holding Ollie & snapping a selfie!

Ollie's front row seat to Mommy's workout!

And other CFBA babies, members, and coaches...
 
    

A Little Cleaning

Adeline goes on cleaning spurts some days where she will clean her room really good, rearrange, clean out her closet, etc. (see, there's a little me in her). She even turns down playtime with the neighbors if she's in the middle of a cleaning spree. This was her most recent project she just debuted to me....

She's been working for two nights matching, folding and organizing her pajama drawer! Sweet girl :)

Janese Family Update

Olive is 10 weeks old already! Currently our family of five is enjoying bath time for this little one, lying on mommy & daddy's bed at night and making her coo and smile, and giving little tootie bug lots of snuggles and kisses. 

Mommy is enjoying time home with the girls, sweet baby breathing, quiet nursing in the night, and special looks of adoration from my husband :)

I'm not sure if daddy is enjoying this or not. I know he wants his sleep back, and his wife back. If he wrote on this blog from time to time we would find out! Daddy is getting special time putting the older two to bed each night and playing special games that they only request from him. Also, lots of one-on-one time with Baylor each evening (I really appreciate that one). And coming to the realization that his two girls have him completely wrapped around their itty bitty fingers.

Adeline and Baylor love Olive.

Baylor is actually loving and excelling at karate! He just got to move up to intermediate classes & got a new, red gi (aka karate suit)! Middle school seems to be going well, grades are good, and health is holding steady.

Adeline just finished a season of cheer classes. She loves to helps me do anything and everything in the kitchen. She knows and can tell Adam anything about cooking, nutrition, grocery shopping, and picking out foods. She also loves dressing herself in sassy outfits that are "shiny"! 

The Seasons of Life

I love reading. Mostly nonfiction, though. It can be anything. Everything, actually. Books, magazines, newspaper articles, blogs, Facebook, pamphlets at the doctor's office...factual things and people's true writing just sparks my interest.

Tonight I read a blog entry about being a mother/having babies. My thought was that it would be another sappy mommy moment where I shed a few tears, but I swear this writer went into my brain,  at this very moment in my life and stole my words! So boy, did it hit home. Here's just a snapshot of her post on her family's completion:

"And yet there is The Ache.

Always The Ache, right underneath my lungs, in the pit of my gut, the ache of what that means and the grief of moving on, of love, of knowing: No more babies. No more nursing quietly in the night. No more flour sack of milk-drunk baby bliss. No more gummy smiles. No more tiny diapers. No more baby clothes. No more crib. No more baby wearing. No more new baby smell. No more of the millions of moments that knit your heart so completely to another small soul."

http://sarahbessey.com/learning-live-ache/

Wow! Maybe I read because I like to soak up knowledge. Yes, on some days. Some days it's because I'm bored. But on some days, like this day, if I wouldn't have taken the 5 minutes to read this little gem, I wouldn't have been reminded to soak it in, one day at a time. This season will change. Soak in the next one. It will go by fast. I have taken notice of older women telling me lately what a wonderful time this is in my life. Maybe they did before, too, and I wasn't listening. Now I'm listening. At first it worried me that maybe they were implying that it's the best time & it won't be this good again. Now I don't worry about that. Now I know that they just mean the seasons of life do change. Enjoy them. I will miss them when they're gone, but if I enjoy every single moment, I will have all those memories to share in the next season. I'm glad we made the decision to spread our children out. They're currently in 3 different seasons. I'm lucky enough to have that school ager, the preschooler, and the infant. All filling my heart with different experiences, and it will continue to be that way throughout  our lives. Feeling blessed!